Abstruse

Always wanting the remarkable
Believing, too, in the impossible
Striving for perfection every day
Truly chaotic in every way
Undeterred by another's ambition
Seemingly propelled by self volition
Ever a mystery to me you will be

Cat Toys

Lizards, birds,
garden snakes,
crickets found

half alive
or dead,
sometimes whole,
mostly not.

Madness

What can you say about madness? The varieties of it are endless. Most people are afraid of it and some relate it to genius.  Some just enjoy reading about it as a form of entertainment. Maybe madness is equal to an unquenchable boredom. A restlessness that refuses to roam. That is madness. What if the key to regaining peace of mind is simply to stay continuously busy? Leaving no time for thinking, one would be a machine and wouldn’t have the time or energy to malfunction. Are we all machines left over from a more primitive world? Maybe madness was born with sentience. The more introspective the person, the more insane one is likely to be? An idle mind can be torture. Has the human race been programmed to always seek entertainment? When entertainment is lacking, there are always pills.

            Madness is boredom and boredom is misery. Is this is why the insane commit suicide? They are locked into a miserable existence. The only way to quench boredom is to find a new obsession. Always seeking something new that stimulates enough to get obsessed with it until gorged, then sated, it’s tossed away and one becomes mad, or bored, yet again. So boredom is hunger. A hunger for something new.

Falling

you fall over yourself anew
anew to your senses you
jump over the moon with a bump
bump in the night with a jump
of fright as you fall in love
love being you a part of

Karma

look the mirror through
what a horrid sight
wicked and blue

karma says to you
think before a fight
good souls are few

ugliness, who knew?
is now a birthright
a stone you threw

will come back to you
what a bloody bite
karma pays your due

keep a vigil and brew
a beautiful light
a special hue

because karma does accrue
either way, day or night
she will get you
and she bites too

Face the Day

there was a time

i was fearless

nowadays i’m

just cheerless

life has thrown

a few curve balls

blindsided me

and made me crawl

i’m gun shy now

don’t ask me how

to face the day

to make the way

but there’s something

that gets me through

and undercurrent

of courage too

and laughter finds

it’s way to me

on rainy days

it helps me see

but I’m gun shy now

don’t ask me how

to face the day

to make the way

i’m just a bit gun shy now

i don’t know how

i face the day

and make my way

Waltz

inside my brain a dozen doors

swing open before me

as the pain of birth lingers

words waltz across my body

endearingly passionately scarred

disappointments on fingers

words waltz across my body

as the pain of birth lingers

confusion reigns while sounds

with hope bleed happily

as the pain of birth lingers

words waltz across my body

a pattern tapped into my flesh

with the sharp end of a stinger

words waltz across my body

as the pain of birth lingers

Sensitivity

someone once gave me a present

beautifully wrapped with ribbons

inside, sparkly confetti, tissue

t’was extravagant and tempting

and as i unwrapped this present

my breath escaped in awe of it

and the most delicate lace crushed

and tragedy was born with a fit

such fervid sensitivity

a curse for some, a gift too

when high, the lows seem alien

the winds blow and sadness will sigh

when manic dreams die, dejected

memories build foundations to climb

beautiful aspirations will

shine rays into the gray of time

step through the looking glass again

let the wind jostle you forward

sweet rest is a memory now

take a stretch, step it up and act

control your happy and grow hopeful

where do you go with your new strength

get away from the others’ show

of ego, learn your song in length

you forever are and will be

fitful emotions of neglect

embrace a crippled soul that’s blessed

in a privileged environment

some patience realized will save you

and time dispels the sinister

dance happy and joyful spasms

ignore the inner minister

Storms

storms emoting inside of me

as are weathered, floating, wet things

storms emoting inside of me

nothing to do, with these i sing

during the night when rest alludes

as are weathered, floating, wet things

errands forgotten and i brood

my dreams haunted mercilessly

during the night when rest alludes

changing my course permanently

setting stages with characters

my dreams haunted mercilessly

myths weaved from whispered messengers

navigating and begging me

setting stages with characters

that i follow to where they see

navigating and begging me

storms emoting inside of me

storms emoting inside of me

Uncooked

be present at this one moment

and feel what it’s like to just be

alive now, raw, uncooked, potent

bloody to look at, not easy

and feel what it’s like to just be

find again where your secrets hide

bloody to look at, not easy

put them under a tree and sigh

find again where your secrets hide

smile at the stranger that nods

put them under a tree and sigh

we are all in our best facades

smile at the stranger that nods

controlled behavior might freak out

we are all in our best facades

so what if I broke the devout

controlled behavior might freak out

defy courtesy and live free

so what if I broke the devout

illogical screamed in the street

defy courtesy and live free

would you please take my hand and run

illogical screamed in the street

run away with me and have fun

would you please take my hand and run

light a bonfire with secrets

run away with me and have fun

bind my secret shame and forget

light a bonfire with secrets

your secret shame, let go of it

bind my secret shame and forget

I hold you, we dance in a fit

your secret shame, let go of it

be present at this one moment

I hold you, we dance in a fit

alive now, raw, uncooked, potent

Smoke Screen

love is a beautiful smoke screen
demanding your heart forever
dressed in kindness, selfish and keen
love is a beautiful smoke screen
she'll entrance with her golden sheen
a minx, she is ever clever
love is a beautiful smoke screen
demanding your heart forever

My Turtle Dove

what is this feeling that devours me?

can’t stand being a brat always in need.

the pain! the pain! mixed so sweetly

with memories so completely

alive with passionate sensations so

the pain is bittersweet to me you know

the skies are gray when you leave me my love

the flowers lose their hue my turtle dove

the gray! the gray! drives me crazy

i do nothing,  become lazy

waiting for your return to wash away

the gray as i beg you to always stay

Birds Chirp

birds chirp
cars swoosh and clank
little pairs of feet click
leaves crackle and rustle to life
the cicadas song is a symphony
i rock back and forth in this chair
enjoying vibrations
of the morning
birds chirp

On the Run

hearts flutter to the sound of you
makes beats skip too, those eyes askew
who's kisses blew your way, undue
winning you few, winning you few

tears run rivers, souls quite quiver
a new giver will deliver
you take, whisper, just a sliver
quake and shiver, quake and shiver

common souls lose when you do choose
to light a fuse and take a muse
you leave them used with a faint bruise
egos accuse, egos accuse

so leave me one favor undone
a fever spun, a loaded gun
to miss you none, for future fun
you're on the run, you're on the run

A Fight

it is not the destination
but the journey, the road, the chase
the movement it's own sensation
a fight for a life in this place

bones seemingly made of cement
weigh one down in this shallow race
small triumphs along the way spent
a fight for a life in this place

a symptom, temporary mood
keep keeping on, one must save face
youth, health, beauty, plenty of food
a fight for a life in this place

give thanks, enjoy the small things now
advice given to up the pace
take a pill to help, don't ask how
a fight for a life in this place

your chemistry will change one day
soon happiness will pain erase
until its return to raise pay
a fight for a life in this place

Remembrance

the stars

and stripes alive

flying across the sky

exploding in remembrance of

freedom

River Bed

blocked from

the river bed

nutrients hard to find

in other places so i long

for it

Create

freedom to create beauty
haunting terror too
with a line drawn here or there
curves, straight, something new

crash out of the patterns with
a slash or two few
and remember nothing taught
saturate, imbue