Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Trust

"As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

My ex-fiancée and I had a volatile relationship which my dreams usually reflect when he's in them. Last night was different. There was a distance between us in the dream, but also there was an unspoken commitment.

If the people in our dreams are actually a reflection of an aspect of ourselves, then I believe he might represent a side of me that is harsh, judgmental, and unforgiving. He usually leaves me for someone he's been having an affair with.

So, last night, in my dream, he came home when he was suppose to and we talked about our day. The conversation was strained, but there was an underlying trust.

Maybe I'm starting to trust myself a little. Nice.

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Where was I to go?
To get away from the show
Of your ego.
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2 comments:

  1. I go through phases where I dream of - like you - a volatile past with an ex. There's usually screaming involved. Nothing worse, cuz you can't control your dreams.

    No matter how much you may believe you've moved on, a dream can take you right back to the anguish of all the unresolved feelings.

    Breaks my heart all over again every time.

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  2. I know, right? I hate that heartache that's revisited in dreams, because it hurts just as bad.

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